When Luke is in the hospital and then the preceding week and a half or so after he is discharged I never feel quite in control of life. It's rather irritating but I have learned that I can just float along as the waves crash. Sometimes it's rough, like today, but I have learned that in my weakness, physically and spiritually, I can make it when I call on Christ for strength.
Sometimes people say that I handle things well and that they admire my strength. I have yet to understand this. Maybe it is because I was raised by sacrificing parents but I don't see how I could NOT do what I am doing. Sure, there are days that I feel like giving up but one foot in front of the other and keep plodding along. The song from Finding Nemo often pops into my head on days when every time I pass my bed I long to crawl into it.
Today is a tired day. That is why I have a hard time when Lukie is on IV's. I get almost no sleep. I am working on having grace even when I was up late at night and then awoken by my laughing, loud toddler at 6.30 am. I believe that I got 4 hours last night and they weren't even consecutive hours. This is totally normal for the weeks after a stay. The infusion schedule is such that trying to go to bed while infusions are running is just senseless.
Today I feel weak. Today I am holding onto the hope that 'when I am weak, then am I made strong'.
So today I will keep plodding along. I will keep watching the kids. I will make supper. I will maybe even run. Maybe today I will keep moving forward because there is no other way for me to go. And honestly, I am enjoying this because someday in the future, my children won't be here and I will have all the time in the world to sleep. Until then though.... 'just keep swimming, just keep swimming...'
PS- We are walking in Great Strides on Saturday to raise money for a cure :) Please consider donating any amount to the CFF in Luke's Legions name. You can click on the Great Strides widget on the side to make a donation. Thank you. Everything helps us find a cure :)
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:)I have cf and i know sometimes it gets very hard to do all the stuff that a cf mom has to do! Im 16 and ever since day one my mom has done a wonderful job of taking care of me. Just hang in there and keep your faith in God<3
How are you guys doing? I am praying that things are well with you and your family.
-Someone who checks your blog every now and then!
Courtney, found your blog. Wondering how Luke is doing? I am a researcher that is studying cystic fibrosis and nutrition, weight gain and things like that. Our data suggests that it is not the fat qiantity per se. Quality matters a lot as well. I think that recommendations of low saturated-fat diets from non-CF population may apply in CF population as well. I wish you guys to be strong and be well. We have a girl in our lab with CF and I see it every day to remind me why I am doing what I am doing. Hang in there!
Hi Courtney. I'm Darby...just a fellow CF mom with a 2.5 year old son named Brady with CF. I love your blog and your ability to be so honest! Thanks for sharing! Check out our blog too...www.keepongoingnomatterwhat.blogspot.com!
I just wanted to come by and say hi. I am a 29 year old with CF. Your son is adorable!!!!!! And you are two strong parents.
Hey Great story
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I love your blog, your honest and open and luke is lucky to have you fighting for him. I would love to follow your blog and if you would like take a look at mine. Jack is 15..
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